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- All I Do Each Night Is Rehearse The Pray Routine
- An Act Of Un-Remembrance
- Better Than Today - Kylie Minogue
- Breathe Out
- Christmas Shopping
- Default Settings/Do You Love Me? [Part One]
- Displacement Theory [Blue]
- DJ (I Could Be Dancing) - Alphabeat
- Ends (Loose And Otherwise) [Ends]
- Fine Time To Lose Your Mind - Jack McManus
- Flat Tyres And Palm Prints [Birth]
- Friends: A Dictionary [Friends]
- From Angels To The Moon/The Soup
- Green Light [Green]
- Hell Raisers
- Home Invasion
- In My Veins
- It Was The Death Of Something [Death]
- Just Like Children [Children]
- Kiss And Make Up
- The Last Time
- Lonely At Christmas
- Love Songs
- Midnight Sun
- Months Go By [Months]
- More Important Than Fear
- Muddied Stars [Brown]
- Not Enough
- Of Peacocks
- On The Subject Of Angels [Orange]
- Playing House [Parents]
- The Price Of Friendship
- The Prize
- Post-Match Analysis
- Secret Admirer
- Secret Agent Owen
- Shine - Skies Of America
- Slow Dancing In A Burning Room
- So Good To See You
- Stage Fright
- Stay (Oh Darlin')
- Study In Motion
- Summertime Feeling - S Club 7
- That Night In Amsterdam/Do You Love Me? [Part Two]
- Three Sets Of Three
- Twenty-Nine (And A Half)
- Under A Colourless Sky [Colourless]
- We Found Something That Belongs To You [Outsides]
- We Were Strangers Once [Strangers]
- What Did You Say This Time?
- What Will The Papers Say? [Purple]
- White Out [White]
- The Wordsmith/Breathe In
- Yesterday's Promise
- 3-0 Defeats
- Barlow's Music Shop Series
- Fanfiction Challenges
- The Postcard Prompts
- OT3, OT4 & OT5
- Stories By Band Member
- Stories By Ship
- Stories By Genre
- Stories By Era
- Band-Free AUs
- Prompt Requests
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Stories By Genre
Angst & Hurt/Comfort
'I will never know anyone but you and I will never know you again' - Jason cannot bring himself to remember the one man he will never forget: Howard Donald.
Howard is let down by Jason, so Mark tries to cheer him up.
What next? - it's a question Howard has asked Jason before, and though the answer has changed over the years, Howard knows there is no one else who can so effectively ease his fear of the unknown.
Howard isn't good with ends, even loose ones, and there is nothing he hates more than a goodbye - so his bandmates come together at the end of The Circus tour to help him cheer up, at least a little.
They both know what it's like to fall down, to roll around in the grass, even to hold hands - Howard and Jason always find themselves drifting in and out of each others lives, always picking up where they left off as if no time has passed at all, no matter what the circumstances are.
When the band start to worry about Jason, Howard makes it his mission to be there for him.
Howard makes one final apology to Jason.
Mark and Jason, making peace and daisy chains after a rough few weeks of newspaper headlines.
Mark starts to question if he's really cut out to command a stage by himself as a solo artist, but one of his old bandmates shows up just in time to offer some perspective.
Mark has always known that - no matter what - if he turns up on Jason's doorstep in the middle of the night with a problem, Jason will listen.
Gary can't help but think that, logically speaking, gold is really just another shade of brown. The rest of the band are keen to reassure him that he's come a long way since he was down in the mud, and they won't let him fall there again.
A year since Jason decided to make his leaving official, the remaining three lads reflect on what the real sadness of the whole thing actually is.
Jason and Howard fly to New York together for the first Progress recording session with Robbie.
Howard can't stand when things are over - but he's worried the only relationship he's ever stuck at might finally be about to see a sunset, and Jason is one goodbye he's not sure he would be able to survive.
Those weeks just after the band split, Howard nearly went crazy, waiting for everyone to turn around and tell him they didn't mean it. Then Jason makes a well-timed phone call which Howard stays grateful for forever.
Mark remembers all the promises Robbie's ever made to him, but he especially remembers the ones he's broken.
Everything is a dance with Howard and Jason - it always has been.
Dancers. It's always dancers with Jay. Mark knows this. But maybe he doesn't know as much as he thinks he does...
When an interviewer asks the lads what the secret to their comeback's success is, she gets four very different answers which are surprisingly similar at their core...
In his book, Gary talks about meeting up with Jason at a cafe in Islington in 2004. We know Gary's reaction, this is Jason's.
Jason can dance round anything. Robbie is desperately trying to keep up.
The seasons change, but Mark still always shows up in Gary's life just the same.
“Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.” – Ambrose Redmoon. Inspired by Take That's performance at the London 2012 Olympics' Closing Ceremony. This is my take on Jason's motives and his seemingly conflicting personalities: the showman and the private, quiet thinker.
Gary catches Jason at an unguarded moment and take the chance to think over just how much he admires him.
Robbie eases his pre-Progress Live nerves by taking a moment to watch Jason dance.
Jason's fears, guilty pleasures...and his inability to stay mad at Howard Donald.
Sometimes it's difficult to remember that they were strangers once, thrown together by random happen-stance - it just seems to fit too well to have been down to chance.
Gary reflects on his past mistakes and on how his relationships with his bandmates have changed for the better over time.
In his book, Gary talks about meeting up with Jason at a cafe in Islington in 2004. This is how Jason prepared for that meeting.
Gary reflects on the ways the days pass by so easily in the company of his three best friends.
Jason just wants to dance. Howard just wants to indulge him.
TT4's friendship comes with its own, distinctive language that sometimes needs translating.
Jason brings his own lunch to an interview. Robbie is the only one who doesn't mind.
Mark was too ill to make it to the awards. So his bandmates brought the fun to him instead.
Howard wants to make sure Jason isn't lonely on Christmas Day.
Jason has an ulterior motive for asking one of the smallest people he knows to help him decorate for a Christmas party.
So it turns out, Gary's been sending Mark flowers. And now Mark would very much like to tackle the issue.
It's a hot day in the studio, so Howard tries to persuade Gary to take a break and go for ice cream.
Only the best teammates refuse to let you be ill in peace - or at least, that's what Jason is choosing to believe.
Jason can think of twenty-nine (and a half) reasons why he's sure he doesn't care if Howard Donald has really gone for good.
Jason once accidentally called Emma a nag during a radio interview. Afterwards, he phones her to apologise.
It's a big band night out, and Mark and Gary take a tipsy moment to bond over Coldplay.
Sometimes all it takes is a last-minute baby-sitting request and suddenly, before they know it, Take That all find themselves - one by one - coming together at just the right time for yet another new beginning...
Robbie contemplates the trust implicit in Jason - after everything - allowing him to dangle him over his shoulder on stage every night of the Progress tour.
Whilst promoting Beautiful World, the lads were asked to write down questions for each other during an interview in Taiwan. Jason asked Mark if he loved him. This is why.
Robbie reflects on his first time being back in the company of the four men he was once in a band with, before things got ugly and fell apart. It's blue and beautiful...but it's not the same...
They've all grown up far too much to be enemies anymore, and they can't stay angry at each other for long - especially not in the email age, when Jason can be there to make peace with a few simple clicks of a mouse...
Mark can't seem to do anything right, and his bad mood seems to be rubbing off on everyone around him. And yet, somehow, Jason Orange is still happy to spare him some time out of his day.
It's no secret that Jason isn't so fond of flying. But his bandmates can never resist a tease.
Mark wanders the set of the Patience video shoot as he starts to remember what being in a band was really always all about.
Mark contemplates godparents, angels and his bandmates.
Howard has come to accept that Jason is the real boss of his house and his family.
After the band's football match at Robbie's, Howard tries to relax his aching muscles without anyone finding out just how tired he is - but nothing gets past Jason.
Gary finds himself being styled for a night out by Mark. Jason and Howard are called on to referee.
Why is Jason wearing shades inside the studio? With Howard gone, Robbie decides it's his job to make sure everything is ok.
Robbie's got a chronic case of last minute stage fright as the band wait backstage at The X Factor. He gets varying degrees of sympathy from his bandmates.
Gary often finds himself seeking Jason out at sunrise.
Whilst promoting Beautiful World, the lads were asked to write down questions for each other during an interview in Taiwan. Jason asked Mark if he loved him. This is Mark's reaction.
It's Mark's wedding day and, despite the ominously colourless sky, his bandmates are determined to brighten things with a spot of banter.
None of them will ever forget the day Mark Owen accidentally knocked himself out on a door...
Jason's given up measuring their friendship in years; now he measures it in Gary's microphone stands, Howard's bad jokes and Mark's laughter...
When Mark meets a man named Jason at a party, he is under his spell immediately and cannot stop thinking about their brief, chance encounter. But he can't help but wonder: is Jason thinking about it too? And what about Howard - are he and Jason more than just friends?
Robbie and Mark's relationship is like a chemical reaction: beautiful, explosive and unpredictable. It's dangerous and exhausting, and maybe Mark's getting a little tired of all the burns.
Nothing lasts - it's the shared principal their entire relationship was formed on. Jason wants to disappear and forget. Howard tries to persuade him to break all his rules. [Companion piece: Stay (Oh Darlin')]
Howard Donald distinctly remembers the very last time he saw Jason Orange.
Written for the prompt 'How Gary and Mark got together': Mark turns up on Gary's doorstep when things with the press start turning sour.
For some reason, even in the darkness, Howard knows that Jason still blazes with light. And he can't look away.
Everyone knows it's over between Mark and Jason - especially Mark and Jason. But there is time for one more dance as Mark wonders to himself where Jason might go - and who with - next.
Jason and Howard know they're making a mistake, and setting themselves up for a fall - but it's been so long, and it was just so good to see each other again...
Companion piece to 'In My Veins' - Jason replies to Howard's letter.
This is spinning around. Endlessly. This is Jason Orange and Howard Donald.